ok alright i get it. i wont ever be that cool "it" girl. i wanna try. no cut try. i will. but then i stay awake long nights popping V's and wondering WHAT THE FUCK went wrong? how come they get the likes and the followers and the cool skinny pics while me, here, writing on a cotton sheeted bed gets to be solo with no notifications or miss you remarks. you can probably guess what im talking about. yes your right, im pathetic but hey what can i do. its how i feel. i feel like i should delete it. but then i would be cut off from the world - where would i be with out constantly checking out other peoples lives. its all minute by minute tick toc tick toc wasting our time. id rather be catching Z's or popping more V's
but then again, i am a little crazy, an anxiety filled insomniac who constantly searches the mind for questions and doubt upon myself and maybe others? i dont know its all judgemental and id prefer to live as a cat.
meow.